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Mother Teresa Had Serious Doubts About God

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Old letters released yesterday reveal a side of Mother Teresa that have shocked some - that the Nobel Peace Prize recipient had serious struggles with her faith.

In a new book that compiles letters she wrote to friends, superiors and confessors, her doubts are obvious. Shortly after beginning work in Calcutta's slums, the spirit left Mother Teresa. "Where is my faith?" she wrote. "Even deep down… there is nothing but emptiness and darkness... If there be God — please forgive me."

Eight years later, she was still looking to reclaim her lost faith.

"Such deep longing for God… Repulsed, empty, no faith, no love, no zeal," she said.

As her fame increased, her faith refused to return. Her smile, she said, was a mask.

"What do I labor for?" she asked in one letter. "If there be no God, there can be no soul. If there be no soul then, Jesus, You also are not true." - CBS News

It's amazing that someone who had a "longing" for God, and who did "the Lord's work", would feel nothing in return. It's too bad she didn't talk about this fascinating relationship that she had with her work, if indeed she felt so empty inside.