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  • Millions lost in funding after federal cuts
    Multiple outdoor basketball courts on a concrete ground. Multiple bungalow classrooms are lined up across the background.
    The basketball courts and row of trailers were classes are taught at Barbara Spratling Middle School in Keyes on Nov. 15, 2023.

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    For the last century, the money has gone to counties with large amounts of federal land that can’t be taxed. Congress failed to include it in the upcoming budget.

    Why it matters: For more than a century, Congress has given extra money to counties with large tracts of federal land to help pay for schools, roads and other critical services. Now that financial lifeline appears to be dead after Congress didn’t include it in the budget passed this month — a victim of the Trump administration’s cost-cutting measures. The Secure Rural Schools Act would have brought in at least $33 million to California counties that have land owned by the federal government, such as the U.S. Forest Service.

    How it affects Californians: California counties from Imperial to Del Norte use Secure Rural Schools funds for schools and roads, but some money also goes toward emergency services, wildfire safety and other needs. Last year the nationwide total was $253 million, barely a blip in the overall federal budget, but a crucial funding source for rural communities that have limited options for raising revenue.

    Read on... to learn more about the layoffs and cutbacks.

    For more than a century, Congress has given extra money to counties with large tracts of federal land to help pay for schools, roads and other critical services. Now that financial lifeline appears to be dead after Congress didn’t include it in the budget passed this month — a victim of the Trump administration’s cost-cutting measures.

    The Secure Rural Schools Act would have brought in at least $33 million to California counties that have land owned by the federal government, such as the U.S. Forest Service. The money is intended to compensate counties for tax revenue they can’t collect on federally-owned land.

    "This loss (is) nothing short of catastrophic," Liam Gogan, head of the Trinity County Board of Supervisors, wrote to Congress. "This is not just a funding shortfall; it is an existential crisis. Our schools will suffer irreversible damage, emergency response will be paralyzed, and our economy -- already fragile -- will be pushed past the point of recovery."

    California counties from Imperial to Del Norte use Secure Rural Schools funds for schools and roads, but some money also goes toward emergency services, wildfire safety and other needs. Last year the nationwide total was $253 million, barely a blip in the overall federal budget, but a crucial funding source for rural communities that have limited options for raising revenue.

    “It’s a nonpartisan issue – we thought it would be a slam-dunk,” said Patricia Gunderson, superintendent of schools for Lassen County. “But it wasn’t a priority for Congress. It’s budget dust, a pebble in the big picture, and it just wasn’t on their radar.”

    In the fall, Secure Rural Schools passed unanimously in the Senate but never received a hearing in the House and was not included in the temporary budget passed in December. Advocates tried again in February, with a new bill they hoped would make it into the most recent budget.

    But the bill wasn’t included and isn’t likely to pass on its own, as Congress seeks to shrink federal spending amid President Donald Trump’s orders to reduce government bureaucracy. Rep. Doug LaMalfa, a Republican who co-sponsored the bill, is “pursuing every avenue” to get it passed, his staff said. Many of the counties in LaMalfa’s district voted for Trump, but school officials have said they view Secure Rural Schools as a nonpartisan issue.

    Advocates are also holding out hope, however slim.

    “We’ll keep pushing, but the time for Congress to do what’s right for rural schools was yesterday,” said Tara Thomas, government affairs manager for the School Superintendents Association, a nationwide professional advocacy group. “It’s such a miniscule program, but it’s a lifeline for districts that rely on this funding.”

    Layoffs and cutbacks

    Counties’ funding varies depending on how much U.S. Forest Service acreage they have. Siskiyou County, for example, got $4.3 million in 2023. Trinity got $3.5 million. Los Angeles County, home to the Angeles National Forest, got $1.4 million. Counties typically give half the money to schools and half to public works.

    It wasn’t a priority for Congress. It’s budget dust, a pebble in the big picture, and it just wasn’t on their radar.
    — Patricia Gunderson, superintendent of schools for Lassen County

    In many school districts, the loss of funding will mean staff layoffs, cuts to after-school programs, fewer field trips, delayed building repairs and other adjustments. On the public works side, road repairs will take longer and residents will have less assistance making their homes safe from wildfires.

    In Trinity County, the cuts mean that the county will have fewer crews to repair its 620 miles of roads — 120 of which are gravel. In the rugged, remote mountains west of Mt. Shasta, this will affect residents’ ability to get to work and school, and emergency crews’ ability to reach many parts of the 3,200-square-mile county, said Panos Kokkas, the county’s transportation director.

    A rockslide off a mountain side blocks a road with rocks and a tree. A worker is standing next to the debris and two construction vehicles are in the background driving towards rockslide.
    A rural road with debris blocking the road in Trinity County.
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    County of Trinity Department of Transportation
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    Many of the roads are already in bad shape due to storms, mudslides, wildfires and erosion, he said. In the heavily forested region, it’s not uncommon for fallen trees to block roads or for whole sections of road to wash away.

    “People potentially could get stranded, or fire and emergency crews won’t be able to get through,” Kokkas said. “It could be a very unsafe situation.”

    In counties that are already beset by poverty and high unemployment, the cuts may have a ripple effect, especially in light of the Trump administration’s other cuts, said Siskiyou County Supervisor Ed Valenzuela. Reductions at the U.S. Forest Service, for example, will mean fewer seasonal employees patronizing local businesses and fewer people to maintain Forest Service amenities — a major tourist draw in the summer, he said.

    Siskiyou and other rural counties have limited options for raising the money elsewhere. Rural school districts are rarely able to pass bonds because voters tend to be more fiscally conservative, retired or low-income. Bonds that do pass don’t raise much money because property values are lower overall.

    “It’s not like we have the money sitting there in another pot,” Valenzuela said. “When we talk about making cuts … there’s nowhere to cut.”

    In Alpine County, where 96% of the land is owned by the state and federal government and there’s only 1,100 residents, Secure Rural Schools provides about 20% of the road repair budget and a significant portion of the school funding.

    “The longer you let the roads go, the worse they get,” said Nichole Williamson, county administrative officer. “Our roads already aren’t in the best condition. We always worry about losing Secure Rural Schools, but still, I was surprised it didn’t pass.”

    The last Secure Rural Schools payments to counties will be in April.

    This article was originally published on CalMatters and was republished under the Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives license.

  • Annual lit festival explores his OC legacy
    Two flyers have images of sci-fi author Philip K. Dick on them. One reads: 'Philip K. Dick Festival'
    PKD flyers outside the Pollak Library, where his papers are housed.

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    Did you know Orange County was once home to one of the trippiest and perhaps the most prescient science fiction writers of the 20th century? That man was Philip K. Dick, who once called Santa Ana home.

    PKD's O.C. legacy: Dick grew up and spent the majority of his days writing in the San Francisco Bay area. A professor at CSU Fullerton invited Dick in the early 70s, where he continued to write, give guest lectures and eventually donate many of his papers to the library.

    A lit festival in the OC: The 4th International Philip K. Dick Festival features a wide range of talks and panels exploring everything from quantum physics and artificial intelligence to death and the afterlife in the author’s works

    Read on ... to find details on how to attend.

    Did you know Orange County was once home to one of the trippiest and perhaps the most prescient science fiction writers of the 20th century?

    That man was Philip K. Dick, who once called Santa Ana home.

    This week, the Philip K. Dick Festival will celebrate the work and honor the O.C. legacy of the sci-fi master at Cal State Fullerton.

    ‘A big idea guy’ 

    Most stories about Philip K. Dick — or PKD as many fans refer to him — start out with a list of Hollywood adaptations of his work: Blade Runner, Minority Report, Total Recall, The Man in the High Castle... and the list goes on.

    Dick’s more than 40 novels and some 120 short stories are filled with explorations of what it means to be human, untrustworthy realities and generally mind-bending narratives.

    “Philip K. Dick’s novels are basically impossible to film. But he’s a big idea guy and the ideas seem to excite a lot of Hollywood producers,” said David Sandner, an English professor at Cal State Fullerton.

    The Pollak Library at Cal State Fullerton houses a Philip K. Dick archive, which includes original manuscripts, correspondence and recordings of the author talking as a guest speaker in the 1970s.

    A photo depicts Philip K. Dick sitting near a stack of his literary papers.
    Philip K. Dick with his literary papers.
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    Courtesy of the Pollak Library
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    “Science fiction is a world where you could be,” Dick can be heard saying on the recording. “You always feel this thin tenuous line between your world and a good science fiction novel.”

    Some fans who read Dick now might feel that tenuous line disappearing more than ever. Take for instance the fictional news device known as a "homeopape" from his novel Ubik, first published in 1969. It prints out articles based on a user’s interests and allows them to dial in the specific, niche news they want to read. Sound familiar?

    “He understood that the technology was going to get inside of our heads... Which is what the algorithms are doing now. Right? They’re being set and then they’re being shifted more and more to bring us under control,” Sandner said from the third floor of the Pollak Library, where the Philip K. Dick papers are stored.

    Dick grew up and spent the majority of his days writing in the San Francisco Bay area. Still somewhat obscure and recovering from a self-harm incident in Vancouver, a professor at Cal State Fullerton named Willis E. McNelly invited Dick out to Orange County in the early '70s, where he continued to write, give guest lectures and eventually donate many of his papers to the library.

    Patrice Prestinary, archivist and special collections librarian at the Pollak Library, said Dick’s papers have been moved to their own, more accessible spot because they are so frequently requested.

    The collection of PKD-related material includes colorful 1950s and 60s-era paperbacks emblazoned with rocket ships and psychedelic visions.

    Archivist Patrice Prestinary points to a painted portrait of Philp K. Dick.
    Patrice Prestinary in the Pollak Library's PKD archives.
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    Robert Garrova
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    But Prestinary said many researchers who come here are seeking out the more personal ephemera.

    “You know, writing to his mother and talking about really ordinary things like paying bills and his cat,” she said. “Sometimes they just want to know the man behind these stories that they love.”

    The man behind those stories spent the last 10 years of his life in Orange County, including at a two-bedroom apartment in Santa Ana.

    Pink beams and O.C. friends 

    During that period, Dick had some of his most trippy, spiritual experiences, including a run-in with a pink beam of light that he believed imparted transcendent wisdom.

    “He himself is a character. And once you start learning about his life and the experiences that he had... It’s interesting because then his own life became like his novels,” author and Dick researcher Keith Giles told LAist. Giles will release a set of PKD-inspired novellas from seven authors at this week’s festival.

    But it wasn’t just transcendental experiences — Dick was making plenty of more terrestrial friends in Orange County, too. Those include author Tim Powers, who will be part of a panel called “Phil’s Orange County Friends” on Aug. 22.

    4th International Philip K. Dick Festival

    Where: Cal State Fullerton campus and the Fullerton Marriott
    When: Aug. 20-23, 2026
    Cost: Free
    For more info and optional registration, visit the Philip K. Dick Festival website

    “In a lot of ways, I think he really felt like Orange County saved his life,” said David Agranoff, author and co-host of the Dickheads podcast.

    “I don’t think he felt like he could change his life if he didn’t go somewhere else,” Agranoff said, citing Dick’s struggles with substance use in the San Francisco Bay area.

    Dick died in 1982, just a few months before the release of Blade Runner, which was loosely based on his novel, Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? The film skyrocketed his name into the mainstream.

    “He’s this 20th century writer who’s almost more relevant today than he was then,” Agranoff, an organizer of the festival, said.

    The festival features a wide range of talks and panels exploring everything from quantum physics and artificial intelligence to death and the afterlife in the author’s works.

    “He wrote about all those things and it gives us a chance to talk about not just science fiction, but philosophy and politics,” Agranoff said. “And the festival becomes this way to expand out into the universe... from the view that Phil gave us.”

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  • Both candidates brand themselves as "progressives"
    A split photo. One side is an Asian American woman. Another is a one man with glasses. Both are about the same age
    Connie Chan (left), a member of the San Francisco Board of Supervisors representing District 1, and state Sen. Scott Wiener.

    Topline:

    The race to succeed former House Speaker Nancy Pelosi as San Francisco’s representative in Congress features two Democratic candidates who both claim the title of “progressive.”


    The candidates: On the one hand, there's San Francisco Supervisor Connie Chan, who has Pelosi’s endorsement. She pitches herself as a fighter for working families who’s immune to the influence of corporate PACs. Her opponent is state Sen. Scott Wiener, a fierce advocate for LGBTQ rights who made national headlines for a bill to unmask ICE agents”

    Why it matters: The major fault line? Housing and urban development.

    Progressives across the country are undeniably having a moment.

    Voters are rallying behind populist, insurgent-left candidates like New York City Mayor Zohran Mamdani, Michigan senate hopeful Dr. Abdul El-Sayed and Randy Villegas in California’s 22nd Congressional District.

    But in the race to succeed former House Speaker Nancy Pelosi as San Francisco’s representative in Congress, the city’s voters are split between two Democratic candidates who both claim the title of “progressive.”

    The major fault line? Housing and urban development.

    San Francisco Supervisor Connie Chan, who has Pelosi’s endorsement, is pitching herself as a fighter for working families who’s immune to the influence of corporate PACs and the deep-pocketed tech industry that supports her opponent, state Sen. Scott Wiener. She has characterized Wiener, a fierce advocate for LGBTQ rights who made national headlines for a bill to unmask ICE agents, as a “corporate Democrat bankrolled by billionaires.”

    But Chan’s own legacy of thwarting housing development projects and zoning changes in her district could turn off some progressive voters, especially those new to city politics. San Francisco voters have for decades tended to oppose new building projects, favoring neighborhood preservation over additional housing.

    That attitude largely contributed to the housing crisis the city now faces. Rent costs have hit a historic high as Bay Area tech workers hit the AI windfall — one recent industry report found the median rent for a one-bedroom apartment has surpassed $4,000.

    “Progressivism in San Francisco has really become very tied to this identity where it doesn’t say ‘yes’ to a lot of stuff,” said Jane Natoli, a housing advocate who lives in Chan’s supervisorial district and supports Wiener.

    “For whatever reason, especially on issues such as housing, San Francisco progressives have largely said ‘no.’”

    In the June primary, voters chose Wiener and Chan over former Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez staffer Saikat Chakrabarti, who excited younger voters with his messages echoing those of Mamdani and U.S. Sen. Bernie Sanders. The tech millionaire aligned with Wiener on the need to turbocharge new housing construction, yet embraced the anti-establishment, anti-corporate attitude.

    “I really liked him so much because it was like a very ‘Yes, and’ approach to YIMBYism,” said Alex Vanscoy, Chakrabarti’s former field director. Now he backs Chan, who has promised not to take any corporate PAC money, saying “taking money from lobbyists is a huge issue to me.”

    Wiener and Chan concur that affordability is the top issue for San Franciscans and agree the city suffers a shortage of housing across all income levels. But they differ profoundly on the role of state and federal governments in fixing the issue.

    What’s the root of the housing crisis?

    Wiener believes the state should ensure that local governments actually build new housing, rather than just promise to do so, especially cities and counties that have long resisted new construction. As a standard-bearer for the abundance and Yes in my Backyard movements, he authored legislation, eventually signed into law, that eliminated regulatory hurdles for certain building permits, pleasing both labor and developers. City officials have told the Legislature that the “streamlining” policy has shortened the average permit wait times from years to three to six months.

    Chan has largely opposed new housing and development projects, saying she’s prioritizing tenants who would be displaced and small businesses that could lose business during construction. She has said that the “urban renewal” of the city’s Fillmore district from the 1950s through 1970s had detrimental effects on San Francisco’s Black community and doesn’t want the same to happen in other neighborhoods. The backlash to that urban renewal gave rise to the modern San Francisco progressive.

    “I think we’re starting to see the real divide show up,” said Eric Kingsbury, a Wiener supporter and member of the San Francisco County Central Committee, the local Democratic arm. “I would really expect to see a lot of discomfort, because if you are pro-housing and you’re an otherwise progressive person, you have a candidate in this race, and it’s Scott Wiener.”

    Chan, who is one of the four most left-leaning members on the San Francisco board, recently voted against moderate Mayor Daniel Lurie’s family zoning plan — a state-mandated revamp that seeks to increase density and building heights near public transit stations and on major thoroughfares. Chan previously led an effort to sue the state on the grounds that its housing requirements unfairly targeted San Francisco. She said she opposed Lurie’s plan because it didn’t include enough safeguards to prevent demolition of rent-controlled units and displacement of tenants and small businesses.

    “I think for people to say that she’s anti-development is kind of ridiculous,” said Norman Yee, a former San Francisco supervisor who supports Chan. “All she wants is to make sure that number one, tenants don’t get displaced, and two, to make sure that community concerns are addressed.”

    In 2021, Chan helped kill a proposal for a nearly 500-unit mixed-income development proposed for an empty parking lot a block from a BART station, prompting The San Francisco Chronicle editorial board to excoriate the then-eight progressive supervisors for sabotaging “seemingly all earnest attempts to deal with this city’s housing crisis.”

    Outside of housing, Chan also railed against a plan to build an express lane for a bus route that was one of the busiest in the country prior to the pandemic, protesting the loss of parking spaces and arguing that small businesses would suffer during the construction. The city’s transit agency approved it anyway.

    Chan has objected to Sacramento involvement in local planning and zoning. She argues that corporate developers and the Wall Street real estate industry have convinced lawmakers like Wiener to allow them to bypass local review and zoning regulations — an attack Wiener described as “tired” and untrue.

    “We can still have accountability, we can still have environmental review and improve government efficiency at the same time,” Chan said.

    Chan points to her support of a recent 98-unit affordable housing development for seniors, which she features in her campaign launch video. Chan highlighted that no existing tenants had to be displaced since it was built on the site of an abandoned funeral home.

    “I always make this joke that if anybody got evicted from the site, it was a ghost from the funeral home,” Chan said.

    In the video, Chan touts that she would “build real affordable housing, not the Sacramento version that destroys our neighborhoods.”

    Wiener said the building, which opened last November, was made possible largely because of his Senate Bill 35, a landmark law Wiener introduced to fast-track building permits, along with close to $60 million in state funding.

    “If you’re trying to make it harder and more expensive to build housing, or even impossible to build, then that’s not progressive,” Wiener said. “That’s conservative.”

    It’s still unclear whether San Franciscans who supported Chakrabarti, who won about 18% of primary voters in June, will coalesce behind Chan or Wiener in November.

    Other divisive issues

    Housing isn’t the only issue in the race.

    Wiener, who is Jewish, alienated some progressives by resisting using the word “genocide” to describe the humanitarian crisis in Gaza. After public pressure mounted following a tense candidate forum, Wiener reversed himself and explained his decision in a video on social media.

    The reversal landed awkwardly at best and offended enough members of the Jewish community that he was forced to step down as chair of the Legislative Jewish caucus. Others deemed his change of heart performative and “too little, too late.” Months later, pro-Palestine hecklers berated and harassed him so aggressively at the city’s trans march that he left the event.

    Wiener’s back-and-forth on the use of “genocide” has created trust issues for a lot of younger voters, said Kaizen Betts-LaCroix, another former Chakrabarti staffer who supports Chan. Betts-LaCroix said Chan’s unequivocal opposition to military aid to Israel and her rejection of corporate PAC money are main reasons they back her.

    The senator and his campaign have also faced criticism for negative and mean-spirited attacks, including repeating the misleading claim that Chakrabarti lived in Maryland and a now-defunct parody AI chatbot that mimicked Chan and cheekily criticized her obstructive record on housing and other issues.

    Pelosi, who has wielded her influence to boost Chan’s campaign, immediately denounced the site and rallied several high-profile Democrats, including seven female members of Congress and former Mayor Willie Brown, to join her.

    “Women have spent generations fighting to have our own voices heard in the halls of power,” Pelosi declared on social media. “We should not have to now fight against artificial intelligence putting words in our mouths.”

    Within days, Wiener’s campaign deactivated the site, took down the billboards promoting it and apologized for offending voters, acknowledging that the site “missed the mark.”

  • Reintroduction bill killed
    In this photo provided by the Woodland Park Zoo, a grizzly bear shakes off snow in the Northern Trail exhibit on January 18, in Seattle, Wash.
    A grizzly bear shakes off snow.

    Topline:

    Lawmakers on Thursday killed a controversial plan that could have allowed grizzly bears to one day return to California.


    Why it matters: The measure would have tasked the California Department of Fish and Wildlife with creating a “roadmap that evaluates whether, and under what conditions, reintroduction of the grizzly bear is feasible and advisable.”

    Why now: Assemblymember Buffy Wicks of Oakland, who announced the decision on the proposal, told reporters that before intentionally reintroducing grizzly bears, the state must figure out how humans can best coexist with predatory wildlife.

    Lawmakers on Thursday killed a controversial plan that could have allowed grizzly bears to one day return to California.

    The Assembly Appropriations Committee spiked Inglewood Democratic Sen. Laura Richardson’s Senate Bill 1305. The measure would have tasked the California Department of Fish and Wildlife with creating a “roadmap that evaluates whether, and under what conditions, reintroduction of the grizzly bear is feasible and advisable.”

    As is typical with the Legislature’s appropriations committees, lawmakers didn’t discuss the bill; nor did they take public testimony before the committee’s chairperson, Democratic Assemblymember Buffy Wicks of Oakland, announced the decision.

    Wicks later told reporters that before intentionally reintroducing grizzly bears, the state must figure out how humans can best coexist with predatory wildlife. She pointed to the controversial return of gray wolves to California and the subsequent loss of cattle.

    “The state needs to really invest in how we are actually addressing and dealing with those conflicts,” she said.

    Grizzlies once lived across most of California. As many as 10,000 may have roamed before the Gold Rush. They were so prevalent that when California settlers tried to form their own nation, they called it the Bear Flag Republic. A grizzly bear is memorialized on California’s flag.

    Settlers systematically exterminated the animals. They were gone by the 1920s, leaving the smaller black bear as California’s only surviving native bear species.

    Two Native American tribes consponsored the bill, and several animal welfare and environmental groups supported it. They argued that bringing the second largest land predator back to America’s most populated state would right an ecological wrong and help restore California’s degraded ecosystem.

    Opponents included ranchers, hunting associations and rural communities. They argued California is far too populated with people to sustain another apex predator. Rural communities are already overwhelmed with conflicts with mountain lions, black bears and wolves that attack livestock and wander into their towns, opponents said.

    The measure set aside no funding for the study, but it allowed for a future Legislature or an outside group to do so.

    Yue Stella Yu contributed reporting.

  • It goes over the 5 Freeway
    A cyclist in full gear taking a picture of the new bridge he is on.
    A cyclist enjoys the new bridge in Irvine built over the 5 Freeway.

    Topline:

    Irvine opened a new pedestrian bridge this week that lets you pedal, scoot, or walk over the 5 Freeway — and keep going to the hills or the sea.

    The details: The bridge connects the Jeffrey Open Space Trail, which runs along Jeffrey Road on the east side of the 5, to trails and bike lanes on the west side of the highway. The path is almost a quarter-of-a-mile long, 15-feet wide, and car-free!

    If you go: You can park at Cypress Community Center, 255 Visions, and take the short connector trail to the bridge. Or check out the city’s interactive bikeways map and plan your human-powered route. (Note: The map doesn’t yet include the I-5 bridge and adjacent trail connectors.)

    Irvine opened a new pedestrian bridge this week that lets you pedal, scoot, or walk over the 5 Freeway.

    I threw my bike in the car and went to check it out.

    I parked at Cypress Community Park in Irvine and was soon biking over the 5. The bridge is only for pedestrians, bikes, and scooters — so no cars to worry about.

    A bridge new bridge over a freeway.
    A new bridge in Irvine opened this week. It stretches across the 5 Freeway and connects to other trails in the city.
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    The bridge, which opened on Aug. 11, is a key link in Orange County’s network of trails that can take cyclists and pedestrians all the way from the hills to the Pacific Ocean.

    “It looks like they nailed it. This is great," said James Connolly, who was on a scouting trip from his home in Costa Mesa.

    “ I wanna take my e-board, which can go about 30 miles, and go all the way to here and then turn around and go back, you know? It looks like that's feasible now," he continued.

    A woman pushing a stroller and her son on a scooter going across a bridge.
    The new bridge in Irvine opened this week.
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    Sadia Kahn was trying to keep up with her two young boys, who were on scooters.

    “ It's our first time here. We've been watching the construction for a while, so yeah, we're excited," she said.

    Khan said she has come to really appreciate Irvine's network of parks and trails.

    “Prior to having kids, it would just give me like the heebie-jeebies by how like manicured it is and then you have kids and you're like, "Oh, I get the hype," she said. "We've drank the Kool-Aid is what I'm trying to say.”